Testing my true nature...
I had been sitting in my office reading Wayne Dyer's, 'Change Your Thoughts, Change Your Life'. I had decided, the other day, to randomly choose a page to read. For those of you who don't know, this book is a guide to understanding the Tao Te Ching.
The verse I chose today was #38 and it was really interesting and really fitting for what I have been thinking about lately. In my words, it was all about being good without trying to be good. You just are because you are a piece of God and therefore it is in your nature to be good without any concept of bad. Does that make sense?
If you can not be good, you turn to being moral but that is based on standards of right and wrong which then leads to rituals or laws...creations of men/women about what is right and wrong as well as the consequences for not following the rules.
According to Wayne Dyer, when you are artificially good, you are letting others decide where you fit on a goodness scale. Goodness is not obtained by obeying laws, it is what is within your true nature.
Well, my true nature was about to be tested...
I was happily reading away when I had a thought that I should go to the bookstore at the mall. I told my husband and set off on my own. My daughter was in the bath so she couldn't come and my son just wanted me to bring him to Tim Horton's and then back home which, to me, was an inconvenience. So, off I went.
I looked around, got a couple of great books, a journal and card for a friend. I was standing in line with no one behind me. I turned my head at some point and looked down noticing a large bill by the Godiva chocolate display. My heart started to beat faster.
I went to pick it up and noticed another large bill nearby. I picked up both, no one having even seen what I had done.
I was stunned to say the least, happy to find coins on any given day. Anyway, there was a moment of hesitation. Do I keep this money? It was a lot and I had just spent an unexpected $200 on a vet bill today.
I got to the cashier and told her I had found a large sum of money. I told her that I was not going to turn it in because if anyone was going to keep it, it was going to be me but what I wanted to do was to leave my name and number in case the person who lost the money happened to call the store.
I have lost money before...a lot of money and I had to release it since no one turned it in. I told myself that the person who found it would have been beyond the moon with happiness and that I had done an unintentional good deed.
I wanted to be the person to do the right thing though. The right thing because it just seemed that the person the money belonged to should have it and maybe because I tend to live my life as though I might be on an episode of 'What Would You Do?"
I found this experience to be a very amazing example of me trusting my intuition which if you saw my post from yesterday, is what my year is all about. If you read this far, thank you!!
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